Welp, its 3:30 in the morning and I’m wide awake, no excitement from early in the day or nothing interesting on tv that’s keeping me up. Just me, the music playing from my Evo Shift and my sporatic yet persistent thoughts. I’ve never really gone into detail about why I can’t sleep but if you’ve noticed, most of my posts on the blog come at or around this time. I’m always thinking and my thought process is very, very hard to describe. It helps me work quickly (i.e tests, essays and such) but it also prevents me from having a normal sleeping pattern because I can never stop thinking. Often times I have been physically tired but can never get my thoughts to cease or at least slow down long enough for me to rest for a few hours. And even when they do allow me some down time it is short-lived, for I still have awoken earlier than expected only to experience intense fatigue. It seems as if I never slept in the first place.
And that is only the introduction to the complexity that is my mind, I haven’t even begun to explain the ridiculously intricate and mentally exhausting dreams I experience. There have been PLENTY of times where I have woken up in the morning sweating, in tears or out of breath from these dreams that demand so much of me and feel so real. In the past, these have been described as ‘Night Terrors’, far more terrifying, real and detailed than a normal Nightmare. I recall several times in my life (especially in the summer of 2009) where I stayed up several days in a row for fear of experiencing another night terror. Shits crazy man.
But not all of my dreams are night terrors and as a result, I have some really detailed dreams. Seeing people from my past or present in situations that my conscious being can only imagine. Just as the night terrors are so realistic that I find it hard to distinguish them from reality sometimes, these dreams are too. I have had dreams that my relationships had worked out differently, that I been spending times with deceased relatives or even that my life was better off than it currently is. I have also woken up shook from these too.
I mean, shit is weird son but what can I do about it? Just wanted to vent for a second. Life is crazy and all we can do most of the time is deal so along with my issues come wisdom that I take with me in life. I tend to think that makes things at least a little better. Welcome to the mind of a Mildly-Depressed Genius. Peace and Blessings.
One of my favorite artist on G.O.O.D. music.. Talks real shit no doubt..
The Oscar-winning film will arrive in 3-D for the first time on September 16, 2011, but only for a two-week window. Don’t worry, if you miss it in theaters, you can see it on DVD not too long afterwards in Blu-ray and Blu-ray 3-D starting October 4.
I haven’t really posted anything about these as far as pics go but here’s the most recent ones. I must say they are making it more and more easier for me to want to purchase more than one pair.
They are supposed to release on July 1st but considering thats a Friday, I’m gonna say they’re probably gonna come out the 2nd
Well.. Since my last post I have been thinking about alot of things.. One of them happen to be life and the way I live it.. Great example.. do you know how much I spend on shoes? A year ago I didn’t see nothing wrong with spending 200 dollars on a pair of shoes that Iam only gonna wear once or twice.. but I had to think about it. How is gonna fit in the long run or when I become father? Will I still have these shoes? Will I still be buying kicks? It took me three days to come up with a answer.. Here it is..
At some point in our lives we grow-up.. And as we grow we understand that priorities are priorites which means that they come first.. Like bills and our children.. I would be more proud to say “I paid my bill on time” or “Im paying for my child to get a great education” than to say “I got them jordans”.. Im not saying you shouldnt be proud of your j’s cause im proud of mine.. But Im 19.. And I only got 2 bills n I make sure they paid on the due date before I buy some kicks.. The matter of the fact is priorities, and the fact of the matter is grown up.. May be in great structure but Im tired..lol
By now, you all are familiar with my deep, deep love for singer/songwriter Nikki Jean, right? Right. So you can only imagine how happy I was when I found out her album was finally releasing this year after so long a wait. Her debut album is entitled Pennies in a Jar, and this is the title track..
I LOVE that song B.
Niggas just dont realize, and she is so beautiful. Here is another song from the album titled, Steel and Feathers that she co-wrote with Bob Dylan of all people. Now if you don’t know who he is, just know that in itself is a remarkable accomplishment.
Pennies In A Jar will be available on July 12th. In the meantime visit The Nikki Jean Project and order some cookies, I’m about to. And if you read this Nikki,
I LOVE YOU!! Keep Up the good work!
Cee-Lo did a video for his fourth single off of ‘The Lady Killer’, I Want You’I love the vibe of this song and think he did a pretty good job on the video. Enjoy,